He often appeared amusing to family and friends alike. Daddy was seen as a very cool guy by many people. Of course, I looked up to him. However, secretly, I didn't expect Daddy to be around for very long. As I continued to get to know more and more of Daddy, this very troubled and dark side of him began to emerge. I hadn't yet realized that we're all very complicated and complex beings. Thus, Daddy became frightful to himself, as well as to me. Something about his behaviors became off-kilter.