spiritual journey with John Hamilton and Honest to God, an exploration of faith, excess, success, and the search for meaning. This book takes the reader on a raucous ride from the splintered stages of overflowing, firetrap rock clubs where liquor flowed freely and cocaine was ever-present, to the boardrooms of multi-national corporations where millions of dollars rested on creative ideas, to the ivy-covered campus of the oldest seminary in the country, and finally to a suburban parish. Honest to God brings the reader into the daily life of a pastor who wrestled in secret ― pastoral duties intertwined with the lure of success while having to serve up a watered-down theology. As the author began to reflect on his own journey, cognitive dissonance emerged from the God fan club he unwittingly created. In the midst of spiritual turmoil, Honest to God confronts the parallels between despair and atheism, questioning the nature of God in the face of personal and existential struggles. Readers are left to ponder: Can we even know God?