When the church that her husband shepherded for over eight years no longer wanted his services, deep feelings of sorrow and betrayal plunged into Dianne Esau Porter's heart. In an instant, her happy, stable life felt directionless and out of control.

In a sincere memoir about her struggles with uncertainty, loss, and forgiveness, Esau Porter is open about the hardships that the wives of pastors face. She was used to doors in her life opening, but she wasn't prepared for them to close.

Esau Porter recounts the events that left scars of uncertainty on her soul. She weaves scripture and the wisdom of great theologians as she searches for God during her trials, trusting that she'll feel his healing grace.

Esau Porter ultimately had to lean on the faith that God had a greater purpose for her family that would make sense only in the future.