Think you know what a police officer does every day? You think Hollywood gets it right?

Unless you've been out there, you don't know. Nothing you see on the big screen or on television in the safety of your home can prepare you for what we do every day.

Night after night, we deal with the worst society can throw at us, then we go home, sit with our loved ones and pretend we're okay. But sometimes...we are not okay.

In Who I Am: The Man Behind the Badge, I'm going to describe all the gore, all the horrors and all the emotions I felt, not to gross you out but to let you know what I experienced.

If you find any of these stories disturbing or uncomfortable, then I have accomplished my goal-because I was equally disturbed and uncomfortable. And I live with these memories every day.