The death of someone very close to us can shatter our world, sending shards that pierce the soul; and the bleeding can't always be stopped. Each story is unique and is complicated by the depth to which we understand our emotions and feel our pain-and if the loved one had not lived out a full life span. Writings, stories, and support systems about grief are plentiful and varied; finding those that best resonate with each unique struggle and personality are important as we develop who we now are without our loved one. This true tale exposes the inside workings of a wife whose mind has been shattered by her husband's death from cancer. The descriptions of what she is enduring and thinking are primarily from the human perspective, yet the spiritual perspective is unavoidable. Connect with the widow's mind and emotions as she moves through simple tasks in an ordinary day-vulnerable, real, and searching for how and why to keep living. While this widow's particular journey does not involve unforgiveness, abandonment, or violence, those experiencing these additional layers may still relate to this honest depiction of grieving and living. Journal entry or discussion "starters" are also provided.