This book tells my story of childhood trauma that affected the most important relationship in my life. I grew up under the control of an extremely abusive father. Love was mixed with what I can only describe as hate, and sweet family memories were overshadowed by fear and anxiety. It was not until I reached adulthood that I realized how much this trauma affected my view of God. My Heavenly Father was so different from my earthly father, but yet I related one to the other, and the mistrust of one caused the mistrust of the other. It was a long, emotional journey, but truly God redeems. It took a long time for me to realize that I was not alone. People carry a lot of baggage, they carry a lot of memories, and they carry a lot of pain. This book is to let people know that they are not alone and that healing is definitely within their reach. My hope is that parents read this and take seriously the impact they have on their children's lives. I also hope the people who have suffered pain and abuse would hold on tightly to God. He is ultimately our Healer.