3The doctor felt with bed rest I should recover quickly. That sounded like good news to me. I was all for a speedy recovery. However, the speedy recovery did not come. I became weaker and weaker each day, with the life edging out of my body. I loved my precious children so much, and only wanted the best for them, but the way my life and marriage had been going, I was not sure I was what they needed. Surely God had a better mother for all six of them! My life was such a bad testimony with two divorces. I began to pray ... "Dear Father, I feel your presence near me, and I know You are my Shepherd and will not leave me as I pass from this life into the next. Lord, if you have a better mother for all these six children, I give them to you." I closed my eyes, feeling the presence of angels all around me, and I felt the Shekinah Glory of the Lord's nearness. I felt myself lifting higher and higher, and felt I would soon be in the presence of the Lord and in God's glorious heaven. I fully trusted God to care for my precious children, and that I would spend eternity with each one of them. When I awakened, I realized I was still in my bedroom ... I felt a surge of energy flood through my body and strength I simply had not had before. I looked up to heaven and said ... "Ok, Lord, I know you have a job for me to do." Beverley Reuland is a retired school teacher, having taught children for 30 years in Christian ministry in Colorado, California, and Nebraska. Though she faced many difficult challenges throughout her life, her sustaining faith in God never wavered and her ultimate goal was and is to encourage others to trust and obey the Word of God.