3This book was written to empower women, who are survivors of childhood sexual abuse and sexual assault. This is a story of overcoming addiction, low self-esteem, low-self worth, rejection and an empty heart. A heart desperate to be filled with the love and devotion of Jesus Christ Carla grew up being sexually molested by the only man that she knew as her dad. He adopted her when she was two years old, after marrying her mother when she was one years old. He would shower her with gifts and candy, as her mother silently watched by. Her mother resented his affection towards Carla and began to treat her as someone that she could have done without. Carla loved her mother dearly. She was constantly reaching out to her mom for her love and affection, only to get more rejection. Carla's mother loved her, but she suffered from depression and her worth was all tied up in her husband. As much as she loved him and submitted to his every need, he continued to abuse her verbally and mentally. All Carla knew, was to protect her mother. Her mother would tell her she was going to kill herself and Carla's father would tell her to take care of her mother. Carla was an only child and always felt it was her job to keep her mother safe. She could never tell her mother what her father was doing to her because, she would surely kill herself. Carla went through life feeling she was not important. She did not feel she had any value or worth in this world. Carla felt insignificant and irrelevant. She went through life using drugs, alcohol and men to numb her pain until God came into her life.