What happens when your first memories of life and conscious awareness centered around death and mental illness? You end up with a mental illness or illnesses. This book is an autobiography/documentary about Peter Vox, a retired school teacher and professional musician from Long Island, NY who has spent his life battling anxiety, depression and existential sadness. This book chronicles Peter's childhood, the origins of his mental illnesses, history with medications, decades spent in therapy, marriage, careers, journals written from psychiatric hospitals and theories on how to handle your own mental illness. Furthermore, it's also a book about learning from past mistakes, accepting your flaws, focusing on your positive attributes, accepting help from others and realizing that there are opportunities to start over in life if you are open minded and willing to make small changes. Along with chronicles of Peter's struggles are highly amusing anecdotes about Peter's life that show the happy go lucky person that lives somewhere in all of us.