I crawled into Ryan Jensen's bed that first night by accident.

I barely knew him. I thought it was his sister's bed-her room. It took seconds to realize my error, and I should've left...

I didn't.

I didn't jump out.

I didn't get embarrassed.

I relaxed.

And that night, in that moment, it was the only thing I craved.

I asked to stay. He let me, and I slept.

The truth? I never wanted to leave his bed. If I could've stayed forever, I would have.

He became my sanctuary.

Because-four hours earlier-my twin sister killed herself.