As a nurse, the author, had taken care of many patients helping them to weather their storms of physical and emotional needs, now she was faced with dealing with the Agent Orange terminal illness of her soul-mate and husband of forty-nine years. She takes you on that journey with her thoughts and insight to loss and recovery and coping as a widow in her new uncharted waters. From the storm of illness and death, to the illuminating personal meaning, moon in her darkness, to the redeeming rainbow of a new path and life.