Life is sweet until it's not...

I followed my dreams when I wanted to follow my heart.

I spent the summer touring with the band. Cruz Winslow is the love of my life and being with him 24/7 was amazing, until it came to an end.

I needed to go back to school while he finished up his commitment to Exiled.

But, that one decision threatened to tear us apart.

And although I knew a long-distance relationship would be challenging-the time change, classes, studying for exams didn't help.

Being away from one another was more difficult than I ever imagined.

There was no doubt in my mind he was the one for me, but was true love going to be enough?

Because I gave him my heart, and he promised me forever...

I'm living a dream that isn't even mine...

As the lead singer of Exiled, I've become a household name, and everyone wants a piece of me.

I'm trying to maintain a relationship with my girlfriend-but the road was a cruel mistress and wouldn't let go.

I'm chained to my band, chained to my fans, and chained to my family.

And I don't want any of it -all I want is More Jade.

After Jade leaves for school, I miss her like hell and backslide into my old ways.

It kills me because she's the one person I don't want to disappoint.

I love her so much, but deep down I know she deserves a hell of a lot better than me.

I know I need to set her free.

But I can't let her go...

Because what if she doesn't come back?

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