wn life soon, but first, he insists on telling the story of how he wound up in a hospital for the criminally insane. In his own words, he writes about the only girl he has ever loved, his drug addiction, and the gruesome sights he still endures day by day. He swears he isn't crazy; instead, he pleads that he's cursed. That's why he looks forward to his death, as he believes he is far beyond help of any kind. "