pe. Kayla wants to exist at all. Repression Queen is a vulnerable and poetic memoir of The Author's life as a gender transformation erotica writer, weaving short horror stories about sex and gender into the fabric of a life lived divided in two. Through vignettes reflecting on personal experiences, a secretive life as a woman online, and twisted tales of gender swapping, The Author seeks to understand why they just can't get Kayla out of their head.